I am from Many places many moves White Caucasian Anglo Gaigeen Ex church Now yoga Namaste I am from White water tubing Singing round the campfire Yoga every morning Poem every night I am Chaos and harmony Fighting and order Giving birth Helping at death I am Singing together Drumming above Notice bird songs Smell the roses always
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Lately it seems Bad luck has been let loose Causing chaos and pain Cutting a swathe across the land Story after story Sickness disease death Lying and cheating Are everywhere Earthquake and flood Avalanche Sounds like the end times Old folks used to talk about But this is regular times Just everything is Hitting the fan At once Let's get back to quiet times Forget this apocalypse Business right now Get it over with now I say Sad news Bad news Misery Is the conversation More and deeper Sigh shake the head Suck teeth Can you believe At least we're alive Yes yes What is this talk What purpose does it serve Makes me nervous Afraid of silence Afraid to say Why are we talking about The worst things Stop it now While you can still Turn it around Head in a new direction Please Lethargy drags at me Grabs at my ankles Slows me down as I plod through tasks Finish every other one No energy for everything Heaviness yes Over my head and Mind causes me to Grind to a halt Lie down Read and sleep This could be normal For a Sunday It seems I need A reboot The onerous work is done How to fill the gap now Is the question To answer next Drill bit steadily bores through my left eye Doctor tells me You have to not take medicine every time Drill burrows more Friends say just take it easy Have you tried heat Massage ice Spike in the eye Try everything No chocolate No wine Nothing that tastes good More sleep Less sleep Meditating Pulse bore burrow What am I to do Lie down in the dark all day Take enough meds to return to normal Breathe Try again Breathe Red jumps out at you Shouts hello look at me Radiates light and energy Sends a message Hot hot hot Red the roses in my yard Say summer is finally here Says slow down take it easy Stop and smell =========================== Red the bleeding wound Cries out stop be kind Never touch in anger Only love Red the bloodshot eyes Shining with hate Shout never again Will I suffer your abuse Red means stop Now I observe myself Feeling deprived sad Left out alone But realize I am Surrounded by friends Able to have Whatever I want Yet this feeling Knife through my core Tears prick my eyes Where does this sensation Stem from What was the earliest cause This aloneness sadness I think I was Not aware then The first time I called it anger Rage but no It is sadness At the bottom Today the morning rain Gave way to timid sun At last breaking through The clouds Today my mind clears My spirit lifts As we both bow down To our light Today I listen and watch Speak less Try to understand A deeper meaning Today is the only time I have Right now Not tomorrow Not yesterday I only have today Hit the wall again Like an overripe grapefruit Hurled full out Thwack then splatter Starts with a simple event A request asked with confidence Of success no real struggle Thinking I'm in great shape The answer hits me Upside the head No you aren't so great Dr Wonderful Then a sleepless night Haunted by commas and spaces Improper formatting Until I surrender at dawn And admit defeat A shaky mess again Being the glue That holds everything together Is a sticky situation Can feel spread too thin When everyone breaks apart Is there going to be Enough left to Mend all those Broken parts And at the end keep me From shattering also There must be more A new source of glue pretty soon Before this mended mess Falls to pieces again |