Watch the gradual change Watch his eyes The thought clicks into place He realizes what He needs to do Then watch the slow Dissolve of self Lost in the mirror In the camera In the fantasy Pieces fall apart It becomes too hard To stay stuck together When real life clashes Stridently with fantasy Until all roads are closed The last detour ends in Do not enter He has lost Everything
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Jealousy So ugly Looks like meanness Feels like danger and No trust Envy You like him better She's not working hard enough Forced stupidity Unappealing and creepy It's all about Not being sure of yourself At the core is fear Of not being good enough So It's easy to lash out It makes you feel Bigger better What's all this falsehood Lying to ourselves Looking at a Cracked mirror What a waste of time Oh river rush and river roar and River ripple by Sittin on a river rock Sun is in the sky Wind is in the trees They're waving down at me Sittin on a river rock I'm happy and free Oh river rush and river roar And river ripple by Sittin on a river rock Sun is in the sky Boys are climbing up the hill With fishing poles all three I'm sittin on a river rock I'm happy and free Sometimes feelings run So close to the surface that They are bruised by even A slight knock What determines the depth The thickness of skin How can we know Which day is safe For our fragile ego To peek out and Take a stroll around The neighborhood It is no wonder No one wants to talk about them Feelings that is They are terrible troublemakers So much of the time And not to be trusted Not at all Like billowing clouds Trees rise in layers Mount to the horizon And disappear into The hills beyond Road winds rises and dips To come out on a clear river Rushing over bolders Rising in rapids To crest in quiet pools Polka dot woodpecker Is the star guest This week While pasta with Veggies soothes the soul We binge on BBC crime A lovely day today A respite today Escape Put to rest the Dreary tasks A rest in the sun Enforced quiet A pause We become dull from The endless push What can bring change Return to life Music dance laughter Perhaps a respite A pause Away from the city Go to where the Birds flowers trees grass Outnumber the asphalt It is good A rest A respite Could it be that a change Has come Could it be my time at last A time to celebrate the outcome Of years of sweat To reap what I have sown Over many years Can I hope for a new life Of opportunity New doors opening I didn't believe This time would come And truly It isn't here yet But I saw a glimmer today Of a shiny new future Change all new Wrapped up with a bow Just maybe For me The Tao says "When there is no desire All things are at peace" Is it wanting that Brings unhappiness And having That brings fear of losing How are we to sit With nothing And want nothing With billboards Television Computers Shouting from every corner You need this And this and this Are we to sit Cross legged in the Center of this chaos And be content With what is Not sure how to do it But it calls to me Time to think of other things The good moments The people who stepped in And said Stand up for yourself Who taught me how to Accept a compliment Instead of saying no What about those who Were always there Accepted me Loved me And the one who has Always been by my side And now forgets all the bad What about that These things matter Just as much Or more Than the bad things And it is time to Ponder the good When she drinks She turns vicious And turns on him Where this comes from Is not clear But come it does In a flash of violence Drunk on tequila A nasty way to go And falls down the stairs Being drunk no real harm Comes to her beyond Passing out in a heap Serves her right Let her stay there In the morning she wakes And knows her shame By the scrapes down her sides From falling And blacked out memories Yes it served me right No more tequila ever |