What is the meaning he asks Construct your own meaning For what reason You have the reason But I crave more Yes you do I always crave the highs This is your permanent state Can you accept this But what is next What about here and now You are making your own reality I can understand that I'll try that Maybe it will always be like this Can you accept this Think about it
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Almost a new year A few more days to Peel away and shed Until the bright new year is here Behind we leave many deaths injuries and hurts And no guarantee that The new year will be better Or even different What choice do we have but to Continue picking our feet up And putting them down again A little farther along Than where they were before To go on is truly what we have The constant as The night the day The river continues to run The birds do not question this So why do we After all this is what we have This gift To be alive Let's say you have a migraine The ice pick straight through the right eye variety With some sound and light sensitivity And for fun let's say you happen To be walking through Times Square And it's a holiday weekend Let's imagine the surging crowds Of happy noisy tourists The flashing neon signs The fifty foot flickering billboards And music blasting from every storefront Ladies and gentlemen you have Entered into your own Private hell That only you can fully appreciate But don't worry because even if You manage to escape into the subway Waiting for you there will be A full brass band playing And for that special touch You'll have a high pitched electronic hum To complete the evening's torture Welcome to my Magical christmas adventure Have a great time Each morning as I balance On my mat in tree Or dancer I gaze at my view Chimneys rooftops Seem to stack on one another And in the far corner The tallest tree is my drishti My focus I think about what hill it sits atop Which house is behind it The little family in that house I love this view The clutter of lives so close Upon each other There are those who yearn for A country road a field solitude But I treasure the homey crush Of humanity I look over The known and unknown The many voices many tongues I feel a part of this This is home The deep sensation in my chest Fullness and gratitude Comes at an acknowledgment of what I have done So far from the void created When my mind spirals down A dark rabbit hole The past is past I tell myself That was then this is now And rescued once again As from drowning I bounce back Keeping two steps ahead of The darkness It is a message on my phone That is the true life ring Tossed to me floundering She said I trust you with my life I almost can't look at the words Shy grateful born again To swim not sink To fly Breathe in and the cool air Fills your head Loosens up the Tight bands that Grip there Wind blows hair back Smoothed wrinkles furrows and Worry lines flat And calm Sun beats on head Face arms legs Into your tight insides Until they loosen Laughter takes away The edge the worry The tension tightening And washes it clean To start things Fresh again Too many people are dying The old ones yes are sad We know it is coming As it should But we hear more and more Young lives stopped short By a bullet by drugs By suicide There is a deadening Of the senses that begins After six seven die The shock does not last It becomes Normal But with every ounce of strength We must fight this normal It cannot become our normal Now or ever She came down the stairs Screaming at her kids I swear next time You're going to school I don't care if you're puking You're goin to school The kids wild eyed Red cheeked fixed Their gaze on mom Waiting to see And the baby chubby cheeked Big blue eyes just fifteen months Flinched every time she Moved suddenly Eyes never leaving her Break your heart his eyes All I could do was Play a game together Help them laugh Return to calm The older boy tougher But the baby Big round eyes fixed on her His mouth an o Waiting for a scream It hurt my heart To see him flinch He is just too young To have that look In his eyes You've got to love that child Within yourself Find the strength To forgive yourself You've got to love the fight To find yourself Love the search Search out yourself If you search you will find When you find you'll free your mind And when your mind is clear Nothing can stop you my dear You've got to love your core Deep inside of you Open up every door Deep inside of you If you search you will find When you free your mind Then let it shine Let it shine Let it shine Rain pounds down winds blow The cat runs inside aggravated I watch out my window my few feet Of space and one branch waves In and out of sight Bare of leaf but for the tip Where the small cluster grows Two leaves outstretched like wings The head bobs As my little bird branch Lives its momentary Existence By my window |