A new year again
Time for assessment Take a reading of life What isn't broken What needs fixing Walk more Listen more Stand still more Move more Look into eyes more Breathe more Fix or mend the broken Strengthen what is well Push the boundaries Of the unknown What is yet to come Welcome with joy
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The eyes of a child
Unspoiled untouched Innocent and real Tell the story Of the life she has led Tell of caring And protection Of never being exposed To harm To people who want To harm The guileless gaze Could not be false Can not be acted It only is It is true It is pure Don't make my heart hurt today
Take all these memories away I walked alone on a stree I knocked the pain off its feet But then I saw that face Said not again not again Oh please please please dont make my heart hurt today Don't make my heart hurt today Just let me push it away My memory fade into grey And then I saw that face said please please please Let it go let it go Not a trace Remains dont make my heart hurt today Thought I knew my mind but I can't seem to find how to set you free so you won't trouble me Don't make my heart hurt today Take all these memories away my memory fades into grey Don't make my heart hurt today just let me push it away dont make my heart hurt today Surface tension
Glass filled Just overfill Not spilling Very close How many stories Of sadness And human cruelty Will it take To spill over My chest is a hollowed out hole
A snow drift someone shoveled out to make an igloo Numb cold empty No words coming easy to me now Me the glib one Always knows what to say Not now Time to look her in the face And not say How did you let him treat your baby like that And not say How did you cover up for him How are you still covering up And not say And you are guilty too girl So I have a hole in my chest And although I'm pretty sure what not to say I have no idea What to say To this woman Hooray it's christmas
Daddy's drunk again Stumbling around with his rosary beads Looking to condemn Us bad kids on the couch Laughing at the Mormon Choir Cause the boys are wearing lipstick As they sing the notes up higher You'd probably laugh at Christ on the cross Daddy slurs our way We just look at each other Another Christmas Day Hooray it's christmas Daddy's drunk again Stumbling around With his rosary beads Looking to condemn Hooray it's christmas Hooray it's christmas I am seeing signs in birds
Flocks cross my gaze At the same hour every morning Sometimes twenty Othertimes three Clusters of squabbling sparrows Clamor in hedgerows Cardinal's nest high above His daily chimney roost Signs point to life Everywhere signs point to life And yet as the tiny girl Shouted get out Take me back to My classroom A Swainson's hawk Lifted with powerful upbeats And dove at the classroom window What does this signify Is this not life also A guilty pleasure
Is no longer pleasure When it becomes An obsession Any more than Binge eating is about The taste of food It's not about the food anymore To lie on the couch and Binge on a show Becomes about Finishing it all Like emptying the Whole bottle Doing all the coke So there is no more Can't leave any And when it's all gone I won't be able to Do it any more Right Glass spans floor to ceiling
Not even one inch Splits me from the world outside I sip chai Watch a dense flock of birds Rise in formation Double back Fly off I turn to my friend Talk of new movie Still the outside world Beckons Beyond the slice of glass A child and father Charm the moment Caught in sunshine I should socialize Yes that was a strange movie Truly But a plane rising up Across the view Draws me out again My gaze split too Between in and out Warmth food and friends Within Everything alive without I want to merge Step through the glass Soar with the birds The plane The child Step out of this Day to day Step into wonder Snake in his nest
Knows she will let him back in Though her mind says no She will be charmed by his Pulsating dance Pulling away Moving toward She thinks he is changing Shedding old skin To emerge clean and new But he is still a snake He will not change He lies in wait For her trust |